Wow it's mid-week already. I have started a new position this week as the evening charge nurse for the operating room where I work. It has been interesting, a little nerve racking, and very exciting. I am trying to better myself from the inside out. I know many of you are following my blog for crafting ideas, blog giveaways, and Stampin Up. So when I go on these rants just skip them.
I have started a 90 day process to bring myself to the person I know I can be. I am easily the person I beat up when things aren't going well. I don't know if any of you do this but, I have to make everything perfect. I try and stay 2-3 steps ahead in order to not have something go wrong in doing that I am not living in the moment. I am not smelling the flowers, I am deciding which flowers will be cut, what vase they will go in and what dinner I will cook to show off the pretty flowers. I am more mentally exhausted that I ever could be physically. Exercise, are you kidding I wake up tired and you want me to workout.
I have always been a people pleaser, a nurturer, and a friend. I want, like and need friends. With that being said, I have only let a few people really into who I am on the inside. I have done this because I don't want people to know that my psychie is so beat up by my thoughts. I guess it's almost like being battered and hiding it because you don't want everyone around you knowing what is going on at home. Well I feel that way within myself.
With all that being said. I am worth what life gives me. I will fall and skin my knees from time to time. I will get up put a bandaid on the wound, and the scars will be a reminder that I made it through that in one piece and it will not happen again.
Thank you for reading these reflections. From time to time I will rant and rave. You can enter or you can skip, either way this is good for me.
Happy Stampin and remember to Ink It UP!!